So update time. Lifes been pretty fucking shitty lately. I hate it when everything falls down at the same time, and it always falls on you. its a "full collapse". "im falling down and your not there to break my fall". man, i can soo relate to that album right now. "i am no killer". since ive been robbed of freedom of speech, im just gonna keep my journal here. and if this spreads around skool, then someone is gonna get castrated, and i dont care who, the first person i see will get castrated. mother fuckers. :

: . my anger has been on the increase, along with my depression, and suicidal thoughts. i hate talking to happy ppl who tell me "itll get better soon, trust me". i cant trust u fuckers. i dont trust anyone anymore. i think ive been being an asshole to ppl lately. but thats barely any payback for what theyve done to me. ppl prolly just see me as that kid who hates the world, who walks around with his middle figner raised for attention, or whatever. seems im always being misunderstood. if i commit suicide, ill make sure everyone understands why. ill make sure of it. and as hard i try to tell myself to try not to let them ruin it for me, sometimes its just not enough. "winding up to explode". ive been feeling anti social lately too. liek i cant be around ppl. because everytime im around them, im just reminded of how different i am from them, and how i wish i was somewhere else. its so fucking annoying. if theres a god, he really fucking hates me. for no reason. jus tlike everyone else. hate me with everything, im better off without your animosity. i wish i cud slip into this coma, and not worry about ne thing. see anything. hear anything. its like im dead, but im not really. i got in trouble again, but this time for stealing cokes. fromt aht fat ass pe coach. god damn it. now i have mroe work hours. and i have to listen to those fuckers in judiciary. i swear one of these days, itll happen. im not as strong minded as i thought. one day im gonna break. they just keep winding me, wind me until u cant wind me anymore, and then ill explode. bathe in my blood assholes. :

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"My knuckles have turned to white, there's no turning back tonight- so hold on tight. Kiss me one last time- shut your eyes..."
- It's Dangerous Business Walking Out Your Front Door - Underoath
m not a white collar brat who lives in Bel Air. You don't even know me. So shut the fuck up. Judgemental assumptions like urs is wut pisses me off. Go choke.
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